WELCOME

welcome to Chaliroce room
my author's name is chaliroce : i'd like to use this journal for yaoi updates and supernatural stories..
(for supernatural and spiritual stories i'm using indonesian language. if u want to read the english version, please send me a message. i'll translate it into english. anyway, this story not for show off or to be shared to every one. i made this to help u if u have the same problem with me:) hope u can face it with a calm heart)
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  • What I enjoy doing:

    I love all about fashion, acting, DDR, Yaoi, Yuri, Cosplay, Coffee, and Supernatural stories.


  • Favorite Books:

    happy cafe,
    love me or not,
    masara minase,
    taeko tonami mangaka,
    fujisaki kou
    takakura row
    ike irebun
    madarame hiro
    yuu higashino
    oumi shinano
    shoko hidaka
    nabako kamo
    yuzuha ougi
    takanaga hinako
    mizukami shin
    miki araya
    sakuragi yaya
    yuki shimizu
    asagiri yuu
    anything about spiritual and Yaoi except Doujinshi


  • favorite Movies:
          Lie to me, brookly 99


  • Favorite Music:

    pop and classic, instrumental


  • Favorite TV Shows:

    funny, romantic, happy ending, spiritual and etc


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Something in the toilet

I mean 'general toilets'.

no matter where I go, everytime I go to the toilet room, I always see dark shadow lingering around trash bin and the toilet it self. For me, their colors are not really vivid. so I seldom mistook it with common shadows.

Once when I was in menstruation, there was this big shadow suddenly come from right side and behind the toilet. I cannot see the shape. What I see just like smokes. And The shadows getting closer to me.

-Sorry, Next will be very disgusting because I will go with detail-

So, the shadow was approaching my sanitary pad. And it didn't move from my right side. I didn't catch clearly of what he/she(/it?) was doing. I took some tissue paper and put it on my sanitary pad (just to cover the view of the blood). I was still staring at him/her. And... I forgot to pray!!
So I closed my eyes and prayed:
- the "Entering the Toilet" prayer 1x time
- the "Kursi verse" 3x times (minimum)

Next when I opened my eyes, The shadow wasn't not there anymore.
Since then, I always try to remember to pray whenever I go into the bathroom.

Feelings

I posted my experience ini spiritual inclined tumblr

"after read from your post, I think I realized that I have Clair cognizance. God has been protecting me a lot, when I was 17 years old (currently my age is 27 years old), I had to separate from my parents (they cannot afford my college and daily meals).I have foster father who was willing to take care of me.but somehow I feel that we are going to be separated one day, i feel, he will walk different path from me. I don’t know what was  the cause but somehow I feel something will happen between me and him. so I piled up my money (savings). then one day, after he took care of me for 6 years, the nightmare came. he wanted to sell me because he was feeling disappointed with my sister. he actually wanted to take my sister as his second wife. my sister of course rejected him. and that’s when he started to threaten my sister of my safety. she was afraid to ask me to leave him, because she couldn’t pay my college tuition. i realized he tried to build a distant between me and my sister, he was bad mouthing my sister. then I asked her about what’s really happened, she told me everything, even his attempts to sexually harassed her. I feel full of rage. after i decided to leave him, fortunately, God showed me a new place to move in that day (i was struggling to find affordable room rent before this happen) and when i moved to a new place, I understood about my feeling said that I have to save up a lot of money that time. I paid my rent, daily meals, and college tuition with my saving for at least 8 months. i finished my thesis and graduated, then found my first job. i didn’t ask any help of my sister that time. only her support.

since then, i will feel sudden rage and nausea (because too upset) to anyone who will bring misfortune to me or some people that i care about. after show my dislike feeling to them, i will avoid and leave them. and i just realized,  some people that i despised, they obtained their ‘gift’ from learning in a sect or black magic group."

Diikutin Jin

Hi.. ini Chaliroce lagi. Saya mau cerita tentang kejadian sewaktu mudik 2011 yang lalu.

Waktu itu saya jalan2 ke Jogja ngikut sama keluarga. Sampai waktu pulang kita lewat Cirebon. Saya dan keluarga mampir ke mushola untuk -ngaso- makan, istirahat, dan sholat. Sementara nemenin kakakku ke kamar mandi, mulai banyak yang ngantri di kamar mandi mushola (yang sayangnya nyampur untuk wudu) yang deket keranda mayat dan pohon gede-gede disana.

Di dalam kamar mandi sama sekali tidak ada lampu. Jadi ketika kakak buang air kecil, saya menemani dia. Kebiasaan, semakin gelap tempat tersebut saya semakin awas dengan pergerakkan yang ada, saya melihat sesosok mahluk berdiri dipojokkan depan jamban diatas tempat air selokkan keluar. Saya pikir itu hanya bayangan, jadi saya cuekkin. Tapi ketika melihat bayangan tersebut berdiri, saya langsung melirik kearah kakak ngasih tanda ga beres.

"Apaan seh??"
"Ga.. mendingan jangan buang air kecil disini deh kak"
"Ya elah cuma tinggal baca Bismillah aja.." gerutunya.
"Lu mau gantian.. tar gw jagain pintu.." lanjutnya.
Saya menggeleng. "Ga deh.. gw tahan aja sampe rumah sodara"
"Kenapa seh??" tanyanya. Beberapa sepupu nyadar pasti ada sebab kenapa saya ga mau. Saya ga mau menjelaskan apa-apa karena mereka bakalan freak-out tiba-tiba.

Akhirnya jam 6 sore esok pagi kami sampai di rumah keluarga besar di Jakarta. Setelah itu kami berkunjung kerumah saudara untuk istirahat. Setibanya, kakak langsung sholat, tapi tidak dengan aku karena masih dalam keadaan haid. Selesai kakakku sholat, badanku tiba-tiba panas dan demam, padahal tadinya saya sehat-sehat saja. Kakak juga nyadar perubahan suhu badanku, alhasil kami buru-buru pulang untuk mengistirahatkan diri.

Saya tidur di kamar dengan sebelumnya membersihkan diri serta mulai membaca doa sebelum tidur. Saya mengalami mimpi 3 kali berturut-turut. Yang pertama saya didatangi Mahluk hitam tinggi besar kaya sapu ijuk dah badannya dan di uber-uber karena dia nyari kakakku. Saya terbangun lalu tidur lagi karena badanku masih terasa nyeri. Mimpi kedua ketemu laki-laki itu lagi dan mengejar-ngejar lagi sambil berteriak "Kamu mau ngumpet dimana aja pasti ketemu!". Saya terbangun lagi kali ini dengan jantung berdegup kencang mengingat dia mengincar kakak. Saya memaksakan diri tidur sambil berniat dari hati untuk menghentikan tindakkannya.

Mimpi Ketiga saya bertemu dengannya tapi dengan wujud kakak Iparku. Saya sadar itu bukan kakak iparku. Sekerasnya kakak iparku dia tidak pernah berani memukul kakak, maka saya tangkap tangan mahluk tersebut. "Kamu siapa?" tanyaku. E... dia membalikkan diri membelakangi aku. Saya berdiri lagi di depan dia sambil mengucapkan ayat-ayat Al Quran. Entah kenapa dia berhenti, saya langsung tau dia Jin.

Sambil mengucapkan "Subhanallah.. Allah Akbar3x.." mahluk tersebut jatuh, tapi kulit badannya terbuka tertutup sepeti kerak bumi yang didalamnya ada Lava. Kemudian saya baca Ayat Kursi terus menerus dan tanganku tiba-tiba memegang tombak yang saya tusukkan ke tangannya sambil terus membaca ayat kursi. Saat itu juga saya terbangun.

Mungkin aneh bagi kalian bahkan sulit dipercaya, saat terbangun tersebut saya masih melantunkan ayat kursi tanpa sadar dan mendengar ada beberapa orang yang ikut melantunkan disekitarku. Saat saya bisa menghentikan bacaan, suara orang-orang yang ikut membaca tersebut juga mereda. Dan saya merasakan ada yang menarik sesuatu dari jempol kaki sebelah kiri seakan kamu memakai kaus kaki dan ada orang yang melepaskannya.

Saat saya menarik kaki, badan saya segar bukan main (bingung sama kejadian tadi). Kejadian tersebut hanya terjadi 4 jam dari jam 11 sampai jam 3. Mengingat seberapa sakit saya sebelumnya, saya bangun dari tempat tidur untuk memberitahu kakakku. Tapi semua tidur lelap, sehingga saya baru bisa memberi tahu mereka keesokkan hari.

Pesen: Baca Doa pas dikamar mandi yang lengkap ya. jangan Bismillah aja

Ghost at our work place

Hi This is me Chaliroce~~

I want to share a few story at my work place..of course it's the scary one~~

So i was worked in "X" fashion company, i have been staying in the office even on lunch time.
at first, i see some white shadow always lingering around my office desk. and i kind of ignored them. and one day, I do love cats so much, i am a lil bit surprised when i see something like a shadow with white colors running away from our meeting room passed me to my Supervisor's room. And sometimes with human shape and white colors passed my desk again to our meeting room..hahaha
but i took it easily.  
anyway, in my new office (it's IT Company) someone passed on my back and i knew it's my director. lol. i saw him from mirror in front of me. and i really felt him walking on my behind..there's something like an earthquake feeling every step he is walking..lol that's why, when my supervisor asked me about the director i only pointed to the directors room.
"are u kidding me??? he is not there~~" he said that to me.
"eh?? but i really see him got in to the room." i said and got in to the room. after that i'm speechless. i can not argument that anymore. lol

January Experience

2 January 2011

Suara Ketikkan tanpa henti terdengar dari ujung ruangan. Mengetik, Menyusun Laporan dan mempersiapakan laporan tersebut untuk meeting nanti siang adalah pekerjaan Rara, gadis berperawakkan cina. Sebagai Assistant Director dikantor akuntan publik selama 2 tahun, sangat mudah baginya untuk menemukan waktu luang disela-sela pekerjaannya. pekerjaan yang tadinya ia perlukan untuk selesaikan dalam 2 jam sekarang dapat diselesaikannya hanya dalam 3 menit.
"Ra.." panggil salah satu staff IT yang bernama Bagus, sebagus perawakkannya yang atletis dan terlihat smart.
"napa Gus?? " jawab Rara tanpa menoleh sedikit pun dan masih terus memandangi layar.
"bisa bantu bujuk pak Wanto ga untuk tanda tangan Proposal business trip, butuh cepet soalnya." ujarnya sambil mengambil posisi duduk dipinggir meja kerja Rara.
"deadline-nya?" tanya Rara masih fokus pada layar komputer.
Melihat tingkah Rara yang tidak terfokus pada dirinya, Bagus turun dan berdiri dibelakang kursi Rara untuk melihat pekerjaannya.
"Astaga Ra.. gw kira lu ngerjain apaan, ga taunya baca Cerita Misteri orang luar. Lu dah persiapin semua materi meeting?" tanya Bagus kembali keposisi duduknya semula.
"Sudah selesai dari 30 Menit yang lalu kali..biarin gw nyantai dikit napa." gerutu Rara ketus. Bibirnya dimonyongkan 10 Cm.
Bagus hanya tertawa melihat tingkah temannya yang senang banget dengan cerita misteri tersebut. Kesenangan Rara itu memang jarang ditemukan di para gadis yang umumnya ketakutan dengan cerita seram. Mengingat website yang dibaca oleh Rara, Bagus teringat foto yang dikirim oleh temannya. Foto tersebut merupakan foto 3D yang tak mudah dilihat dengan jelas. Dan mereka yang percaya adanya keberadaan mahluk halus yang dapat melihat wujud asli di foto 3D tersebut. Wujud seorang anak kecil perempuan dengan sayap seperti kupu-kupu.
"tar gw kirimin deh foto 3D..kalo ga salah gw sempet dikirimin ma temen kampus lewat milis. nah Ra, katanya yang bisa ngeliat wujud 3D dari foto itu memang punya bakat untuk ngelihat. and umumnya mempertajam kemampuan melihat mereka." ujar bagus sambil memegang dagunya dengan tangan kanan.
"eh? terus lu bisa ngelihat wujudnya?" tanya Rara yang akhirnya berpaling dari layar dan menatap Bagus.
Bagus memberi cengirannya and menggelengkan kepala. "ga minat ...haha. tar gw kirimin." Bagus berseru sambil menjauh dari tempat Rara. Rara masih memikirkan perkataan Bagus. Keingintahuannya sangat besar dan bahkan dia tidak takut sama sekali dengan film-film horor yang di putar. Rasa hausnya itu membuatnya memberanikan diri link yang telah dikirimkan oleh Bagus 10 Menit kemudian.

Foto tersebut berbentuk abstract dan berwarna abu-abu. Di tengah gambar terdapat ruang putih yang kosong.

Unifier of Soulmate

"so..how about u introduce ur friend to me??"
ha?i have stopped to types the letter that i need to send to Alison. Alison is Rio's Secretary. and while this big boss is here, i have to be his second hand. and that includes hearing his whinning about his love life.
no actually he never share, but it looks like he is waiting for something.
"my boy companions?" i asked to him. 'or my boy stocks?'
he gave a weird wink
"they said u got a lot of boy companions which is they prefer to man?"
"why do u need me to introduce them to u? u can find them i believe..in any bars u step in.."
it's not a bullshit, he is gorgeous, he has a nice smile with dimples hangging on his face. morely, he is a white italian guy with a nice taste on dress up. and me? i'm a chinnese girl, with long hair and fair skin, never use any make up and always come with sporty style. not like Rio, he can get any guy he wanted, mostly i always attracting some stalker, that's why i find it difficult to hooked up with someone. he is about 8 years older than me, his age is 30 something, and i don't need to mention he is shorter than me. but why he never settle with anyone? because his height? i don't think so. my mind keeps on wondering,
'one night stand, isn't it?' he will just make fun of my friends. is he just looking for someone to fooling around when he is staying here.
"yeah..i just..well forget it.." he just turned his shoulder on my face, and i stopped his paths.
"are u looking for some fun? or to get serious?"
i'm staring at him. "ah no forget it..." he smiled.
"actually i have a lot of gay friends..." i smiled to him.
he laughed when i told him that with wicked smile. and then my face turn to be expression less, "but...they believe in love..i'm not saying they are innocent. my friends are Loyal Type, they will give their body, life, love, and everything u want... if u want to fool around, i don't think they'll want that.."
i'm staring at Rio face, he is thinking on something. "mm...are they handsome?"
damn..i hate people who value other from their face. is he want to settle only with good looking man? "not bad ..i could say..they're attractive on their own way. any special type do you like?"
oh my God, i sounded like selling of my friends hahahaha
"i love a strong man image,i love him to be fun..." he gave his type of man. oh..nice i can arrange that..more suitable on your way..
"u love to cuddle on your lover..u afraid to fall in love, u've been hurted a few times by your ex. to have a relationship with a new guy is annoying and bother some, but u love to give them an affection, and you do it without realizing at all.."
i stood up. i looked on my phone watch, it's 6 pm, my time to go back.
"pardon, what are u talking about?" he looks annoyed eventhough ordinary people won't see it at all.
yeah, i got u babe, he doesn't want for people to enter his teritory.
"on 24 June event..i'll invite him..i believe he is suitable for u." i smiled nicely to him.
"what will be the price??" he asked back, his eyes telling me that he doesn't trust me.
"the price will be... your love" i pointed to his chest."your heart..you will love him under his breath and u won't ever let him go no matter what.."
"whoooaa, take it easy sis..hahaha.." he is laughing like i was told him a funny joke.
"bye.." i smile to him as i grabbed my bag with my right hand and said goodbye to him.
"laugh as much as u can..u won't ever know your future who u are going to deal with.." i smirked.

----To be Continued-----
  • Current Mood: flirty flirty

change this room into english room

i want to make a little change on this room.
i'll use english from now on..u're free to correct my grammar and my spelling.
but please don't get wrong idea with wrong typed.
anyway, i still got a few stories that has written by me using my mother language. and i'm planning to change it in to english. any request?
lol

Castiles on the Ocean

A year ago I was visiting “X” beach at midnight.
there was a restaurant in the middle of sea. Actually I’m afraid to go there.
Yeah, because I don’t really like to have any feeling like I were floating in the air. I avoided the ocean view.
And then my friend asked me, “hi iro…can u see something over there? “. she pointed to the blank dark ocean.
I did see nothing. “more focus…do u see something?”
Among the darkness, I see some lines stronger, and like Black and white TV show, the darkness sky become more luminous, the shadow with cone shapes become clearer. There are some temples..how can?
There is no way for any temple to be built on there.
“what u saw was a kingdom.. a few little kingdoms actually…”
is there a big one? i'm asking to myself.
“oh okay…” I’m speechless. After I left the restaurant the kingdoms were still there. I told to my friend “I think I won’t see them on the day light”
“oh yeah ..of course you won’t, they only visible after midnight” lol
  • Current Mood: grumpy grumpy

Maria (I Believe..)

listen to this music..
"there's nothing to fear...ur broken heart will heal, a new love will come to u..shinning through.." Maria(i believe..) by Naoki
i love this one...
and damn, it's not as easy as the sound..lol
"mend your broken heart?" it's something that sound so easy but really hard to work it out.lol
especially for me, it's not easy to trust on someone.
so when once they hurted me, i won't open my heart anymore.
i cried, and shared to my friend, his nick is "hubby".
lol not because he is my husband, but he got name a lil bit sound similar to the nick name. lol
i didn't know what happen to me last night, maybe because i felt so distressful for me and i didn't realize it yet. so i need some release, i cried to him. why am i so stupid? i'm so easily being deceieved by their words. i should have know, they just want to try and have fun on my feelings.
they never thought, i have experience it more enough of getting hurts.
"remember iro..u are strong..stronger than any men.." damn, my tears welled up when he reminded me those words. yes, i'll become strong.
i believe..there will someone who can accept me for the way i am.